I still cant believe that i gave her a luxurious handbag because of my insecurity…. I think my mindset is messed up now, i dont want to be a person that keeps showing off….

Why do i always make mistakes, and cant do things correctly…. Even on an important occasion like valentines day….. I always disappoint myself, when im trying to do my best for myself….

Is everything have to be this complicated and stressful?

I keep thinking that now im in a relationship, i need to do better at my job… but if i keep overthinking like this, feeling worried and anxiety… how can i improve it? Cause working/jobs could affect the relationship, and if i cant do my job it will cause negative effects to the relationship…. Right now im only learning at the office, i still cant do anything yet….. i dont want this issue to disrupt the relationship…. It’s really really tiring…..