I didn’t really confide in anyone just dealt with it myself and bottled it up I suppose, I used to talk to my dad about stuff if anything got majorly on top of me, but my terrible friends I tended to just put up with on my own.

I think I caused damage by instigating this on off cycle we have been in, it’s caused a lot of hurt to her and I’ve been getting anxiety about if I’m doing the right thing or not. I should have been more upfront about my concerns earlier and not sat on things as long as I did and perhaps made her feel safer about talking about her daughter.

She has just messaged asking if we need to talk as she must have seen me typing out one of the many messages on WhatsApp to her that I couldn’t send. Anxiety wave went through the roof and I was sweating as I didn’t know how to respond, maybe talking it all out would help clear the air, I just don’t want make things worse or create another cycle of hurt.