<p style=”text-align: left;”>now that I’m thinking of it, just before I met  her I was obsessed with exercise and my appearance, and it gave me more opportunities to spend time with my friends. then I met her through my friends and at first she didn’t catch my eye. but eventually she just brought so much excitement to my boring life and I couldn’t look away. I tried making a few moves to try to grow a relationship, but more like a friend than a lover at first, but we didn’t match up very well. I felt so dumb an awkward around her and eventually quite depressed. I stopped exercising because it didn’t feel like it was doing me any favors anymore and it just felt too difficult. I had started exercising for myself mostly and it didn’t feel like I was devoted to her. I thought that if I gave everything up for her then I would get to be with her, but I just ended with nothing and her seemingly everything. I realize that she’s just a normal person I took special interest in, and I’m to blame for my shortcomings. also I got issues i wasn’t aware of.</p>
thank you for the response Roberta. I wasn’t expecting something so quickly it was just a shot in the dark. time has passed sense ive become aware that i have a problem and my obsession has seemed to have died down after some long and painful lessons, but it’s still there and may never completely go away. I’m  a little functional now though, I’ve been throwing out some bad habits left and right. like coffee, I’m too stressed already to have any stimulants,  so I drink decaf and camomile now. and I’ve been trying to eat a balanced diet, I was just eating peanut butter by the spoon for a long while and i think i have high cholesterol now. well anyway thanks again, sorry if I didn’t really asnwer your question.