Hey Tee,

She actually agreed to therapy so I will let her do it off her own back. If I don’t see her taking action on it though, I will push her a bit to go there. I told her its for her own good and also my own peace of mind. She is meditating a little bit for her own well-being, in the past she has mentioned it’s the only thing that has actually helped her. So I will convince her too keep meditating.

It’s been very confusing she said she does want to get back with me but doesn’t want me to be in the middle of her own issues for the next 5-6 months. This is how long she thinks it will take to taper off her medication. I offered my support regardless.

I am going to talk about it tonight with my psychologist. The feeling of being rejected and abandoned. I wouldn’t know where too start with this but I am happy to talk about it. I don’t think there is a specific example from my childhood where I felt really rejected and that’s what caused it. Maybe more just feeling like a didn’t fit in when I was younger and that caused it?

It has been intense. She has opened up to me and been very heart felt and apologetic. We are currently talking and seeing how things go. I am definitely a lot more vigilant. She knows she has to gain my trust again on top of break my walls down. It’s a hard feeling to describe because I do want to give her my all but I know right now we can’t be perfect/healthy. I am giving her my encouragement and support still but I have made it obvious that she needs to do the hard work and face it all herself.