I would like to be more of a friend or acquaintance but that doesn’t seem to be possible.  After the last break-up 4 years ago things went non-contact for something like a couple of years.  Then I was contacted again and the door was opened a little.  Since then we have communicated by telephone and messaging, often on a daily basis.  We get on well during this regular but limited contact.  Over the last few years, I have often asked if we can meet but, apart from the last time, this has always been rejected.  No doubt I will ask again, only to be rejected and hurt again.  It seems very alien to me that this limited but frequent, and amicable contact is allowed but that’s as far as it goes.  Especially since I am told that it is all in the past and is hardly given a second thought so why is there a need for the barrier?  Lots of other friends and acquaintances seem not to get the same treatment as me.  I try not to be jealous of this but I am.  I am not anticipating that we will meet again and so I need to find a way to move on and leave it all behind.   I do wonder if I am just an annoyance that is tolerated, which is an idea that does not make me feel good about myself.