I watched the video and it did honestly describe my situation so well. I related to it a lot. I felt I was trapped and walking on egg shells, any word or action could set her off and cause me anxiety about what’s around the corner. Yet I got blamed for holding back despite everything that happened in the past. I guess I just couldn’t look past her leaving me and it probably added to the difficulty of a relationship.

she told me nothing changed even though she told me what I needed to do. However I don’t believe I needed to change anything.

As explained in the video it wasn’t a relationship that I wanted but I did tell myself and I push past this and deal with all the bad despite how it made me feel there would be light at the end.

The whole situation sucks but I am feeling a tad better about it this time, I think I’ve just woken up to what was happening and I also got over trying to fill a bottomless pit with my love. I lost myself in the process 🙁