I am struggling to not beautify the relationship. I know it was quite toxic, manipulative and controlling. But I just have that feeling within me that I could’ve made anything work with this person. Almost as if it’s meant to be for a reason and we will reconnect. I know this isn’t a good mindstate to have but I am having trouble actually fully moving on and deleting her from my life.

It really hurts and I’ve been trying my best to accept it more what it was I am just finding it hard.