Speaking more on passion, the hard work that led to the house was obviously a big goal of mine. I think gaming has something to do with my inner child as it’s all I did as a kid. And maybe that’s why I felt lost when I couldn’t use it as an escape in the relationship as often as I would have liked. She obviously didn’t feel involved either. She felt neglected whenever I would go on the computer so majority if the relationship I didn’t when I was actually with her.

I am a landscaper by trade so I enjoy the outdoors and gardening. We did lots of terrariums and indoor planting together which was really fun to do as a couple so I will continue do so myself. She seemed very driven with her macrame, necklaces etc. she would be up until ridiculous hours just sitting there doing it. I liked that she enjoyed it and it was also an interesting passion. Maybe that’s also what I adored on top of her being childish and spontaneous. But I adored how she had a real love for her passion.