Actually another thing I forgot to mention is that she broke up with me in the middle of her exams, she wasn’t in contact for like a week and I had to contact her friend which kind of offended her because she isn’t really close to her Dorm friends. But she did clarify that she isn’t breaking up because of that.  She gets really irritated during her tests.

Ever since the fight she’s even more irritated I know I shouldn’t have said some stuff which I did during our fight but it just came out because I was bottling it up for a month or so.

The traditional letter idea is good, I was thinking of the same thing but to apologise for the stuff I said during the fight. I am also thinking of meeting her and clarifying some stuff like what exactly in the relationship is burdening and if my presence as a friend without any expectations would be burdening as well. Or does she want me to go completely no contact etc. Because these thoughts keep on spiralling in my head and are affecting me a lot.

When she asked me for space I would usually drop a message each day explaining my day, and usual stuff. Initially she came back to me on her own after asking for space but after she asked me for space the second time she started bringing seperation because she couldn’t handle the relationship. After that I gave her space again and then she broke up with me during her exams when I contacted her friend because I had no idea what’s going on.

I am just afraid of completely losing her, going back to complete strangers.