Dear Caroline:

You are welcome. “I was a fool… Why did I did this to myself“- this is you beating yourself up.

“I believed a coworker who said his team was so much better, work is so great, people are so great..“- I am guessing that’s the coworker honest opinion about the team and management.

“I do not feel good here. I thought I would be respected here” – the not feeling good, not feeling respected, that’s your internal feeling that keeps following you wherever you go.

“They are all nice to me but I am not as passionate about work as they are. We do not have anything in common. And I think it’s stupid how excited they are about getting a project“- this is your alone/ isolated feeling inside you that follows you wherever you go, sometimes more in certain places and situations than in others, but it’s always there, isn’t it?

“I thought it would be different. I thought people would be different, work would be better“- like I always say, when we have very difficult childhoods, our negative childhood/ internal experience keeps following us.. wherever we go, and we feel the same. It  takes heavy-duty emotional healing to experience life differently.

“I am afraid there is no way out of this“- you need a positive distraction right now, a walk outside or a hot bath..? (I am about to go on a walk)

anita