Dear Robi:

Good to read that you arrived well!

“I am a little surprised by the levels of anxiety I’m experiencing. These days I’ve been very tense and I felt like I won’t be able to ‘make it’ ( as in to get a job, get things sorted ). It comes and goes“- enjoy the times it goes, and manage it when it comes back.

I think that your anxiety is about you feeling not grown up, at 30 (“Growing up- becoming adult” is in the title of this Feb 2024 thread), not like an adult, but like a boy, alone in a new country. Children are afraid to be all alone by themselves; they are afraid that they can’t take care of themselves, as in “to get a job, get things sorted“. They need .. a grown up to get a job and sort things for them.

Part of you will need to be the grown up that the other part of you needs. Robi the adult has a scared, anxious child with him all the time, a child that needs care.

I hope you had a nice walk and chat with your friend!

anita