Dear Worldofthewaterwheels:

Before you can find answers for your personal “study in loneliness and rejection” (title of your thread), you have to find an effective way to calm down.

You cannot conduct a study on anything when you are as angry, stressed out and unable to focus as you are (“I’m still feeling very angry all the time… I’m angry all the time. And when I’m angry, other things go wrong.. Basically, I’m totally unable to focus… I’m too stressed out“).

“I go out and buy little things that add up to a lot, drink too much“- these are two ways to calm down that haven’t been effective for you.

Can you address what I brought up here, in this post, with your therapist/ doctor?

anita