Hey Tee,

Thats good to hear you are trying to think more positively. I think that’s something I try to do a lot of the time in general but I do have my days.

There is definitely a lot less pressure in this relationship which I like. She is in a similar position – likes where things are going and happy to see where it leads. I do find myself trying to leave the door open for deeper discussions a lot and she doesn’t really seem to want to engage in that. This is probably my only red flag I’ve noticed so far but I hope she does open up a bit more to me eventually. I bottle things up at times as well so I can understand where she is coming from but eventually things will need to be spoken about, like exes etc.

In saying all this recently I have felt a bit more down than normal. I think I’m still just finding my feet in the world like everyone else but I do struggle to feel like I fit in at times. To elaborate recently I have just felt like I don’t fully connect with people even though I do try too, conversations can be hard at times. I find myself wanting to go back into a comfort zone of just smoking weed and being by myself. Not sure what the reason behind it is though.