“Maybe I’m the con and will continue to be so no matter where I go“- can you elaborate on this sentence?”

Certainly, I’ll be more than happy to elaborate.

I always felt that my issue was my environment, I think. There was always some excuse, “I’m in a  predominantly white area, I’m just not the right type of personality,” to the point where it’s like, no matter where I go, I won’t fit in I think. Like, I’m just doomed essentially to always be an outcast because I’m me and not any other reason if that makes sense.

A large part of me wants to go into the psychology field to learn my place in the world both socially and mentally, and to explore a side of myself that I find uncomfortable or disconnected so that I could help others. I want, more than anything, to have a sense of normalcy and be able to not only take care and support myself, but also be a pillar for people who feel like me; out of place.