Dear Lulu:

“No matter where I go, I won’t fit in I think. Like, I’m just doomed essentially to always be an outcast because I’m me“- this is what I thought and felt for many years, no matter where I went, I was an outcast.. until I was not.

“A large part of me wants to go into the psychology field to learn my place in the world both socially and mentally, and to explore a side of myself that I find uncomfortable or disconnected“- if we are disconnected from others (parents, caretakers) very early on in our lives, for too long, we feel disconnected from ourselves. It is like two sides of the same coin: disconnected from others/ disconnected from oneself.

It is so because we are social animals, born that way. We have to be connected to others early on and onward, if we are to be healthy human beings.

“I want, more than anything, to have a sense of normalcy and be able to not only take care and support myself, but also be a pillar for people who feel like me; out of place.“- this is a noble purpose. I hope that you do become a pillar for people who feel like you, out of place. Maybe you and I, here on your thread, can explore ways for you to be this pillar for others sooner than later.

I am wondering, what did you think about what I typed for you in my first reply, about the commonalities I feel we have?

anita