Continued:

Loyalty Unrewarded, a title of a book I will never author.

Loyalty Never Rewarded, never to be rewarded. Loyalty that was never acknowledged, never to be acknowledged.

Never Noticed.

A better title: Loyalty Unnoticed.

Better title: Love Unnoticed.

I hated people because of loyalty to her-

My whole life, hating people she hated-

But no noticing AT ALL by the person I have been decades-long Loyal to-

I was left Alone by the person I tried to be a part of

Alone hating all the people she hated-

Alone all the way around-

Alone

Simply Alone

Love for her never reciprocated, never noticed

The essence of me (love for my mother) never noticed-

Not even Noticed?

Just like that, dismissed, ignored?

Why is it a surprise- I mean, she said: “you are nothing, a big zero”-

She said it, but I didn’t believe her, didn’t believe her words

And tried, again and again to make her love the “big zero”

No, believe her

Let go, let go of loyalty to her.

-To be continued.

anita