Thanks Anita

I re-read again. When I read you said the anger part took over and made me do stuff that I normally don’t(being empathetic etc), I do agree. My feelings were my head was exploding, and i was a bit out of control. The pattern you found was accurate, I started to blame my closed one. I don’t think I leashed it out without regulation at all, sometime I do leash out, sometime not. I do not think I threatened to leave etc, but the emotions and the pattern  is there indeed. The pattern was not resolved as well.