Hi Anita.

My best friend since the 3rs grade died of Covid related issues 3 years ago.   She was my true friend.   She was more than just my best friend.  She was like a sister to me.   My mom is best friends with her mom and all her mom’s sisters .   So this is still to this day very difficult for me not having her here to talk to , to do things with and we kept each others secrets .  Secrets no one knew about, not even our parents.  We were there for each other during weddings, the birth of our children , even when our children would get sick, during funerals , you name it.   When she passed, I never felt so alone .  I even though I had my family , I still felt alone.   I had friends, but not like the bond we shared.  I would make friends but I could  not trust any of them.    I can’t even trust my own sister n law because one time I told her something in confidence and next thing I knew everyone knew about it.
my brother would rather be around her side of the family . He and I really don’t speak anymore.
it is so hard to for me to trust the friends I do have .  So… yes.. it was wonderful to have had a true best friend.   I miss her so much.   I visit her grave often.  Just wish people wouldn’t break my trust in them.