When my mom was in the hospital, I saw first hand how being stuck on a bed and waking up to a pipe down your throat does to a person. My mom felt she could not breath and tried to pull out the pipes in her throat. They had to keep her sedated enough so she wouldn’t do that. My brothers all saw that. My father too. It was a DNR order after that. To us, it was better to let her go that to see her suffer. you may think the worse of me. I do not care about that. I loved my mom. But, I was not willing to see my mom suffer anymore.

When wanting someone to live no matter the suffering, one should ask if the life is more for the person or is it for you. Do you want to keep her alive for you? Or do you really believe she will recover and get better? I am not suggesting anything, other than to think. Thinking creates the atmosphere in which we live. The thoughts gives us the ability to feel and to contrive all that is needed.

I wish you well. And I wish your FM lives way beyond your expectations. Take care of yourself.