Dear Seaturtle:

In regard to K: “as I would express myself..  I would start to feel like I was making things too much about myself... l like I am being selfish… I feel like I am oversharing, or over-burdening him” (Sept 15 & 18, 2024)

In regard to your father: “I left any trace of myself in ‘his’ house, he would get upset..  list all the ways I had exemplified being ‘ungrateful’ at his house… how I didn’t think about him” (Oct 11, 2023).

Craving to express yourself, to comfortably leave traces of yourself for others to see and hear, on one hand; feeling selfish when expressing yourself, on the other hand. I am reminded when you had your roommate/ friends at your father’s house not long ago, for a vacation, how you left no traces of yourself in his house before leaving.

It’s a conflict within you. I will write more tomorrow. You are welcome to add a post before I return to the computer.

anita