Hello Chelsea,

I can understand how you feel. I don’t have any clear advice to give, only something that I can see of myself looking into the past. Hindsight 20/20 🙂 I’m not sure if it actually helps you though.

You’re probably expending a lot of energy into wishing that things weren’t like they are right now, and that your life would be different. It takes a lot of energy to fight every moment of your existence. It leaves one exhausted and not sparing a lot of extra energy into actually getting things done. Besides, you’re kind of living in a limbo in such a situation: not really embracing and living in the reality, but not living in the fantasy life either. There are probably a lot of possibilities and opportunities around you all the time, but to be able to see them would require strength, energy and trust. There’s probably not much of those left at the moment, if you keep spending your energy on fighting, instead of going with the flow.

I recently read somewhere a quote, that I can’t remember fully, so I’ll have to paraphrase: humility is not trying to outsmart the reality. You may hate your current job, but it might offer you a way to get where you want to be. Do the best that you can with what you have right now at your disposal.

I sometimes think that somewhere in this world there is a person who wakes up really early in the morning and walks miles and miles to do a job that pays less than a dollar per day, and then walks back home to eat and sleep and does it again the next day. Am I above doing such things? For some reason, injecting a bit of humility in my life offers this tremendous feeling of safety and even happiness. Why fight everything, so that it would be how you want it to be right this minute? Why not do what needs to be done right now, and do it well while you’re at it? Why waste time and energy into wishing that things were different, because they’re not going to be different through magic. What if you’re not ready for Nashville just yet?

So I guess my answer to the question of what can you do to get back in touch with the life and the universe is “humility”.