It seems we dont know what we want to do when we are younger.
I made many mistakes that I regret, but we cant unscramble an egg and just go on
learning new things.
Some parents are go getters and it passes on to the kids, I didnt and just never thought of the future. My family nevrr taught me.

no I didnt listen either till hit my 50’s, but one day at a time and we finally get it.
my advice to you is to :look for your talents and you will find it again.

good luck.