Rebecca,

Thank you for your response. I admire your honesty, self-awareness, and articulate writing skills. In addition to practicing metta as Matt suggested, you may want to explore mindfulness, which is complementary to metta and other forms of meditation. Mindfulness enables me to block out negative thoughts and rests my mind. Cultivating compassion and having better control of our thoughts leads us closer to our true self and inner peace.

In Kindness,

Bill