Thank you Alice and Matt.

@cutiealice , i have been in these states temporarily for different things – which makes me wonder why people often refer to passion for career as one thing? does it have to be one thing? What if i can love without bound, provided the fears that hold me back are gone? I enjoy my subject for example but when the moment the fear of performing badly hits me, it becomes a burden.

@amatt , i do see the point. Perhaps i am an explorer and i think the point of exploring is to grow as people, get somewhat closer to reality and know ourselves better. I have a question. Your allusion to portrait confuses me for that signifies the existence of an end result. Isnt man’s potential to create actually unpredictable and endless?