Hey! nice to hear of someone who also uses music to get trough tough times n.n
I think I can relate to the fact that sometimes I need to stop listening to some songs because they bring back bad memories and therefore make me depressed and anxious to the point of breaking down :c

I can’t certainly say that a ballad would make me feel better (I’m more of a punk, easycore person, because these genres have uplifting melodies, are fast paced which makes me feel adrenalin to break trough my problems and very powerful and motivating lyrics) but I will definitely listen a bit of them to try something new 😉

P.S: I find it strange that you’re not allowed to break down :c it is so harmful not to be able to do so. If you accept my suggestion, sometimes I just put a big pillow in my mouth and scream as loud as I can, or do energy consuming activities like drumming, cleaning or something of the sorts. It actually worries me for your health

Anyway I send you a big hug!
🙂