I am glad to read this Zaica, many blessings to you and your husband, life sometimes separates us to bring us back closer than ever. Now you are in a better place to start over and so is he. People can say a million things about the right time to dwell, the right time to laugh, etc. but as you say only I know what feels right to me. I have no clue when the “longing will cease” but what I do know is I’m not going to run away from my feelings but rather endure them with full awareness. Only then can I really heal. Thank you Zaica for your words and support, knowing you and your husband are working things out leaves me with a smile 🙂