Thanks Danielle and Matt 🙂

Hi Echo @gammatrees

Thanks for your post.

I had to meditate a little after reading your words as I felt conflicted initially.

Despite the autism, ?brain damage, history of significant abuse and trauma and seizures, you come across as a highly intelligent person. If I was to put myself in your situation, I would have probably broken down many years ago and be in as an involuntary patient in a psychiatric institution somewhere. You have done really well !!!! Hearty Congrats 🙂

I think there is nothing in this world, which can break you now. So have no fear. Keep enjoying a happy existence with your BF.

Yes, some people can be very nasty in this world but we often do not know the full story as to why such things happen. I think life is a lot deeper than what it appears to be on the surface.

I have learnt that when life keeps winning at throwing curve balls at us one after the other, there is a huge lesson to be learnt. Until we learn the lesson, the curve balls wont stop coming and often they increase in frequency as we continue to move away from the path. I am not sure as to what you need to learn but you can do some introspection and try to figure it out. There is a pattern to these events and that might give you a clue for where the change needs to occur. You need to be honest with yourself. Many times, we tell the world a different story so as to protect ourselves but then that takes us away from the path even more.

My teacher tells me that when we wish to lessen our suffering, we should start doing selfless service. Any selfless service will do but the most rewarding service is to feed or look after small children (orphaned, homeless, poverty stricken etc) or homeless animals. This activity generates a huge amount of positive karma and has a potential to turn things around quickly. Could you look into doing something like this ? Go and volunteer at the Salvos or some orphanage and give loads of love to these kids. You can volunteer at an animal shelter and care for the animals there.

And consider the suggestions made by Matt about becoming a part of local community, which attracts kinder people.

Give yourself and your BF a big hug.

Jasmine