You are reacting to your reaction to your reaction. Instead, you might take a moment to take a deep breath, and push back with determination. Like you did by going to the event. Put aside the reactions and fears for a moment and allow your life to happen. Even if it feels scary. The more you realize that nothing bad is going to happen to you, the less you need to feel anxious and ruminate over it.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 