Matt’s answer is good. I can also feel with the Ruminant’s experience. I am the same, yet slightly better. And I still have good days and bad, and sometimes, when I’m sleep deprived or something happens that digs right down to the root of my weaknesses, it all goes out the window for a moment and I’m as bad as ever. But I get back out of that mire more quickly now. And it doesn’t happen so often, now.

Keep practicing. You don’t graduate from eating your greens (as Matt says) or brushing your teeth or getting up on time or being kind to people. It takes less deliberate effort as you get into the habit, but you keep doing these things. That’s what change is, remembering to do the things that are helpful.