When i see what he ‘does’ in his profile, i feel 1.guilty for doing it. 2.i feel sad cause he don’t love me anymore
3.im afraid of he will find another woman and i don’t know when this will take place,i’m afraid even more.This will be healing cause when i’ll see her i’ll stop visiting it.
4.i’m curious about what’s up on his life,i see how he is feeling

Yes,i want to control myself but i don’t want to feel pressure.

Fear comes when i think that something bad will happen (he’ll find a woman obviously,..oh,i’m tired of all these)
Yes removing temptations isn’t a brave action,but it’s easiest way not the right.

Although i’m doing things for myself but not many…
i go for a walk,i have people who love me and i have a lot of things to do but i don’t take care of myself so much.
for example,i want to achieve some goals since 3 years..i haven’t achieve them yet.I’m so mad with myself and I feel shit about this because these goals are so easy to achieve (daily exercise,eating healthy and study for my degree because it’s been a long time that i fought …with goals.If i’ll delay it more,maybe i wouldn’t take the degree.) I mean why i don’t try for myself?
These things would make me happy but i don’t even try for them.And this is another reason why i’m thinking of him….because i don’t do things that gives me pleasure.(for myself!!)

Thanks so much for answering,and excuse my english..please. (i guess you understood it by my grammar or syntax,i don’t know! haha)