Hello, I joined this site to get some insight and find some kind of connection with positive people and people that would somehow point me in the right direction. This is the first time I have laid this subject on the line (literally and figuratively). I read your post and I can relate to it completely. A year ago I was an extrovert and I felt in total control of my life. Then I lost my got stressed out at work and endured what I guess is called a meltdown. My sense of self-esteem was shattering and as I looked at the pieces I began to notice some anxiety and awkward lulls with my friends.

It hit me like a ton of bricks in slow motion. I began to notice I was out of the moment. I wasn’t myself, I was worrying about petty things, my mind wasn’t clear, I felt no motivation, and I became utterly depressed. This was the antithesis of what I was years prior. I didn’t get it. How could I feel so connected to my family, my job, my life, and then boom…I am experiencing anxiety and feeling unlike anything good and positive. One factor I think is a big one I am feeling is that this experience led me to have to stay with my brother. This was a difficult humbling moment for me. I lost my independence. It added to my low sense of self-esteem.

I am no doctor, I am no soldier, I am a man that is experiencing something similar. I am on the verge of moving out and I think when I do get out, I will have more of my independence back. This is my hope. I hope it will all turn around when I feel like I own my life again and steer my ship toward the destiny I am striving for. I have to try to keep my head up and push on. I hope you find the peace of mind you are looking for. I lost my relationship due to this “anxiety” issue. I was consumed by it. I fell apart in so many ways, now I feel like I am starting over. Rise above it and push on sister. I am trying hypnosis now…hoping it will reboot my subconscious and allow me to get to the next level. Best wishes.