Hey Joe,

I understand your state of mind…

Let me tell you, that you’re not the only one shy person here, I’m shy too and takes a lot of strength for me to socialize (even with friends).

Be open to try jobs, these dillemas are always there as to which stream/field to choose for job. Although one stream might be of interest but might not have many opportunities. There will be some other which might interest you. Keep looking for it. Don’t close yourself to job options. Only when you be open and try it out, you’ll know how comfortable you’re with it. And for the opportunities you missed, don’t lament over it, move on and grab the next ones.

‘Hate’ is a very strong word, I would say never refer it to yourself or for anybody.

It’s ok if the thought cycle is back and forth (positive and negative). Mind is a strange place…very difficult to handle! What is good is, you can atleast manage to get yourself on track with help from motivational stuffs. After all, we all need help. I would appreciate you for the efforts you’ve been putting in to get yourself on track. That’s commendable, not everyone can do that.

All the Best…