Hey R91,
Sur has some great advice in there. I genuinely believe that people are good. Most of us are just so caught up in our own heads that we walk with blinders on causing us to be rude, mean etc. That being said, what gives me happiness is helping other people. I get this strange and cool feeling in my guts when I give someone a helping hand. Literally I feel it. I am a LOT like you. I don’t really get excited about anything in life. I do get happy about little things like a good piece of fish and movie but I’m willing to bet you get happiness about that kind of stuff too but don’t realize it. Don’t get down on yourself. As adults we kind of lose that thrill of living that kids have..that wonder where everything is magic. That’s ok as we’re under much stress in our adult lives. What’s not ok is not allowing yourself happiness when it presents itself. I sometimes get caught up in the ideology that “I’m just not a happy person so why would I dance to this song”…when in reality, I just stigmatize myself and don’t give myself the chance. Like Sur said, find what you love and don’t get discouraged if you find that you don’t love much. I don’t either but I make peace with that every day as opposed to getting down on myself. Man, we’re all the same, we really are. Help people more than anything else and then find what you are passionate about by just living your life and being open to things. Don’t search for anything, just keep an open mind and keep your hands on the wheel. Hope that helps bud.

-G