You sir are a fighter, from what Ive read above, wow, you have been through a lot and you have overcome so much in your life. What is even better is when you recognized that if you put faith in yourself then everything will work out fine. Most people don’t even know that, they don’t even think about faith in themselves.

It seems like you have all the knowledge and experience to get through this and get better, since you did it before. This is a minor set back, not a crippling defeat. I recon that things have been happening so fast and there has been so much stress that you haven’t had the time to put faith back in yourself. That may very well be the issue.

You know it man, the fight that you got to fight is in your mind, it is nowhere else, you now this. Go back to the basics, write down everything that you like about yourself (make a list, and I mean everything), you’ll be surprised at what you can come up with that is so true. Make new affirmations and repeat them to yourself everyday, whenever you have a second to spare (this is hard, but if you do it, you’ll see progress I promise you, as I am doing this with myself in my own situation and it works wonders). Tell yourself that you believe in yourself, look in the mirror and smile, and tell yourself again.

You are so blessed to have a wife and kids, you will already be an inspiration to them when they go through tough times because you fought hard and you won and here you are. You did it before and you will do it again. When you catch yourself worrying, stop right there, and continue to believe in yourself. Worrying does NOTHING positive for us, it is a leach, holding us down. Get rid of it, its all in your head man.

You are already taking the right steps and seeing a therapist, now stop nervously expecting magic to happen, stop putting a timer on your sanity such that if you don’t recover by like winter then you’re screwed. Don’t do that, focus on one day at a time. Go to the gym (my personal favorite), get your blood flowing man, you were born to move and it will do wonders for your mental health (not to mention that your wife will LOVE your new and improved body…. and the rest is not pg rated so I shall not go any further).

Also, try out something new that you’ve always thought of doing, such as volunteering at homeless shelters or soup kitchens; I always suggest this since I joined this site and its because I get so much enjoyment and satisfaction out of meeting these kind of people and making them smile even for just a moment.

Again: rid yourself of worrying, its a waste of mental space, especially for an educated and successful man like yourself.

The toughest challenges are for the strongest people, take it head on. Conquer your mind, retake what is yours up there and the rest will follow 🙂 .