Hi. Thanks for your candid story. As someone who struggled with finding what I wanted to do with my life, I just want to honor your feelings of fear and trepidation. In spite of this fear, you do have a purpose and your life has meaning. But it is the purpose you give it. So, this is where the rubber meets the road. I found that going deep within myself and asking “what do I want?”, and letting the answer come, helped every time.

It might astound you what the answer is, but you have the ability to always go inside and ask yourself this question. And if you don’t know, just admit that. There can be many answers. But one will ring true.

Just remember, you aren’t alone in all this. I needed community to help me see what that feeling isolated is a big problem in itself. You will never feel happy if you are disconnected from people. So, finding a group to talk with, opening up to a new way of looking at the world, would be great. Where? Again, go within. What are your interests? Try Meetups.

You have the ability to make this change. And the courage to find it within yourself.

Hope this helps.

Monica
resurrectedmind.com