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I’m sorry that I haven’t had the time to read through every post here at the minute, but from the fair bit I did read, I can’t really say it better than these loving people here have already.
One thing I will say is this, do not make a permanent decision for a temporary problem. Life is full of ups & downs. 5 years ago I had nothing, I had no real friends & had lost all my girlfriends, in fact I was so reclusive I had very little female contact or intimacy for 3 years. Then I started getting back on my feet again, I moved out of my dads, started getting educated again, gave up using drugs, got involved with lots of different girls & then met one I fell in love with & had a baby with. I’m not even with my child’s mother anymore because a lot of s*** happened which has been covered in my own thread on here. Did I allow my self to crumble? Well, yes, for quite a while, BUT rather than let it completely ruin me I chose to take back control of my life, got my s*** together & moved 50 miles away for a new life, a new start.
My life has never been better now. I have a beautiful son. I am studying for a degree. I have a whole new circle of friends. I am involved in my favorite sport which is boxing. Basically I have a lot going on that I never dreamed possible 5 years ago. In actual fact, my brother in law asked me in a party 5 or 6 years ago “where do you see yourself in 5 years” & as I sat there, off my head on drugs, I saw nothing, absolutely nothing, I didn’t have an answer & there was a deathly silence after he asked the question which makes me laugh now, but at the time it was heavy. I saw no possibility that I could ever be doing anything good in 5 years…..yet here I am now in the best place I’ve ever been.
But this is not about me, this is about you. I have only used the above as an example that no matter how low you are, there is always a way back.
Don’t give up. Put yourself out there. Do a course. Start a football team. Whatever.
Find your strength.