Dream,

In addition to the other kind words, consider that he doesn’t deserve better than you, he deserves exactly you. Even as screwed up as you think you are, he is the same. That’s part of what drew you two together. You’re both a huge pain in the butt, and both magnificent.

Consider that you have a huge, big, open heart, and love him perhaps a little more than you love yourself. So, he farts, no biggie. You fart, OMG. He stumbles, and “how cute”. You stumble, and “what a stupid clutz”. Over time, too much of this weighs the heart, until it doesn’t even know why such a wonderful man would be with such a disaster of a woman. Don’t be fooled, friend, even your disasters are beautiful, and the only reason his errors slide right by is because you have such a fond affection for him. Lend yourself some of that light hearted acceptance, you need it too!

With warmth,
Matt