Thanks for everyone’s posts except Tom Dagger. I’m not even going to reply to your post. I don’t know why Belle got flagged. He/She was trying to help.

@Belle – Yes, I’ve tried new things and even joined a few Meetup.com groups. The thing is, none of those things satisfy my desire to be with a woman and to be in a relationship. There all good while I am single but I’d like to do those things with a GF.

I never had any women hovering around me. I guess I was attractive to my past GFs but I never was considered “hot” like my ex.

Patience is definitely something I need to work on but something about turning 40 did something in my mind. It all of a sudden makes me feel like I have less time on this earth than I did before turning 30.

@Louise – I am not sure what you mean. I did love my ex and the relationship did move fast, I admit. I did not use her but I think she used me. I really was very much in love with her. I think my mistake was investing to much emotions in her and also my own happiness. I guess I didn’t really get to know the real her. The thing is, I am not sure she even knows that. My therapist says she’s a “chameleon”.

@Codee – no I haven’t heard of pema chodron. I will look her up. Thanks for the info. Meditation keeps coming up over and over but for some reason I am resistant to it. I think it’s because I’ve tried it several times and I don’t think I am doing right or it doesnt’ feel like it’s doing anything. I have a very obsessive mind that has a lot of intrusive thoughts. My mind also races. It’s hard to keep it quiet.

I’ve tried being the observer. I don’t know why it’s so hard. I start to do it and the next thing I know, I am back to obsessing again. I guess I have to keep trying over and over again. It’s difficult for me.

I know I need to let my ex go. My brain knows this and all that’s logical and real. It’s my heard that is so powerful that overrides what I know is fact with emotions that keep me hanging on.

@Louise – I will look up antidoteforall – thanks!