Hi B.B.,
I’m sorry to hear about the break-up, and especially about the emotional state, or lack of it, that you are finding yourself in. It can feel so powerless, to be cut off from yourself and everything around you.
I will read your second post again a few times, because i don’t understand it completely.

I’m just wondering, the emotional numbness, do you think it is a way to protect yourself, that all the emotions would be so strong that you don’t know how to handle it?

Even though, you say that you’ve grown a lot and learned about your emotions, so i guess i might be wrong with my question, it sounds like you do know how to handle emotions and also strong ones..

Don’t know, just trying to understand it.

(i experience a lot of emotional numbness myself, over other reasons, and it feels so empty, so desperate)