Thank you again, Anne and Vhanon for your replies. I’m sorry it took me more than a day to answer, it is just that i was trying so bad to avoid thinking about her yesterday, that i didn’t want to come here to talk about her. I had a good day, like most of them are, despite of everything, but all it takes to pound my heart is a picture of her in facebook. i’m so very much afraid of when she starts dating again….i’ll be a huge wreck.

Well, i am proud of this new guy i am, because i changed for myself in every area of my life, and all of my relationships improved as well. That’s why i think it’s so unfair that i can’t ask her out, so we can laugh together again and fall for eachother again. I know it’s stupid, but i do feel that…..

don’t know any other ways to bother you guys. I have no one to talk to here. I guess that deep down, i hope for someone to say “that’s a sign that she still wants you back, go after her!”. The emotional gets in the way of the logical.