I don’t know much to say, about her wanting to move on. I shouldn’t say this, i was avoidying it, but she was the love of my life. I choose her, and her flaws, to fight for us….. but everything comes to end. There will be other, sure… it’s so tough to let go. All of a sudden, it’s like we don’t know each other, we are like two complete strangers. If she wants to meet new people and be happy with them, of course she can do that. I would never get in her way, just as i am respecting her trough all this process, since the break up. I guess i tough if i gave her space, like i’m doing, she could eventually realize she wants to be with be. What a silly boy. It’s terrible to see her going to so many parties, maybe meeting new people. Sooner or later she will be with other guys, and i think i’m very imature to feel this…. but the idea of her looking at another man with those loving eyes, like she used to do with me….can’t bellieve i’m going trough this again, for the thousandth time.

I changed for me, i saw it was good to do so, because i was right all the time before, but alone. I was pushing people away. I saw that by being an extremist, i would have to accept the loliness that comes with it. But i don’t, so i started to bring people back into my life, have up on being proud. Except her….she won’t come back.

I really think that us breaking up was a good thing, and the old relationship will never come back. I wanted to ask her out so we would get to know one another. I wanted to rebuild our affection, even tough i know there plenty of wonderful women out there. God, why is this so hard ?!