Hi Vhanon,

Thanks for devoting your time to help me, again. Sorry it’s taking me so long to reply. I try to avoid writing, to avoid feeling this pain. Because i gotta say, it’s not being easy. When we are at one end, suffering, we imagine that the other end (hers) is very happy. Since we don’t talk to each other in over a week, i imagine her happy, without any type of feelings for me in her heart or thoughts for me in her mind. But maybe she is thinking the exact same thing of me, i don’t know.

What i do know is that i never thought i could feel this much pain. Like i said, i’ve been trough tons of things already, but never like this. I know i have many other issues right now in my life. Since the last time i wrote, my dad was diagnosed with parkinson’s and my sister got pregnant. Things just keep happening. And it makes me miss her even more. I miss her so much, i miss her touch in those times of despair, only her touch, her smell….is this sick of me? I wanted to go to her house right now and kiss her. It’s so hard to kill my desires, the things that i really want. What do i do, instead of just waiting for time to pass? I think i’m gonna break. Actually, i wish something just happend with me, to make feel less.