Thank you Jasmine for your kind and helpful words. They mean a lot. Slowly I am realising that this may have been a blessing, I must have been meant for other things. I understand and respect what you said about my boyfriend not choosing our love. However I could never blame or think badly about his decision as ultimately it was not his decision. His life, is culture is more difficult and different than I can perhaos ever understand and I would not want to be the only thing in his life. He does not know life outside of India so I could not ask him to give it all up and step into the unknown. I will always have a special place for him in my heart but I am starting to believe that my life is going to be something more. I have started brainstorming and thinking about my passions and where my life may take me now.
For the first time in a long time I am excited and hopeful and I have started to meditate again and make peace with this life again.
Thank you Matt for your concern. I am doing well today. I am feeling hopeful and thankful and I am beginning to believe in living again. It has been my greatest struggle so far but I feel it will be ok. I am so grateful for so many people and things.
So thank you. It is good people that make me happy about this world. I will be ok 🙂