Hi Matthew
It was great to read your letter and all the wonderful things you are doing to bring contentment and happiness into your life. Good for you for taking charge of your life and pointing yourself into the direction you wish to follow in your personal growth, and it seems a lot of positive changes have been brought about by you for your life.

I hope you are happy with all the good work you’re putting into yourself. And it’s perfectly normal to have times of having ‘random feelings of depression, failure, and self-loathing’ keep accepting these feeling and continue to learn from these feelings, as you are doing. A break up from a relationship, where you were hoping for long term plans is a sad thing, something that can’t be rushed. The days were you feel ‘hopeful, and so calm’ will begin to be more numerous, especially with all you are doing to help heal the hurt, and your quest for personal growth.

Ah your still young! You were where you were in your 20’s (still a few years left xD)and did the best for where you were at the time…they weren’t ‘wasted’ .. we live in the present day only, learn from the past to improve today…be gentle to yourself – when we are gentle with ourselves we are more open to learning from our past, as well. When hurts begin to heal the past also has a lot good and happy times and you will be able to focus on these more easily.

I’ve got no advice for you, you’re doing great steps so far, the only thing I can suggest to you is perhaps not mention EVER your cash nest of $401k ! What are you doing there xD trying to get under a pile of gold diggers 🙂 Some ‘Gamer’ sites might suggest throwing out a random comment like this to attract the gullible and IQ challenged chicks but yeah… best remember if that amount is true best keep that information to yourself! 🙂

Warmest wishes
Snails