Hey Doremi,
I can tell that this has been taking a lot out of you and I’m sorry that this has been taking away from your happiness. Your ability to persevere is what is causing the problem though. The problem lies in you choosing to accept how you feel about the company. Take responsibility for your feelings and realize that you have the power to change them. There are a few ways you can fix this but first you need to understand that your desire for money and a job title will never lead you to happiness. That only comes from within. You need to find some type of hobby that you can do before and after work that centers and relaxes you because it seems that the anger you feel towards your company is depriving you of living your life. You need to understand how serious this is.

So firstly, if this job is truly what you want, you need to be relentless in your pursuit for advancement. Work harder, show up earlier, leave later, constantly bring it up to your manager and managers manager that you’re ready for more responsibility. Your manager may be threatened by your skill level and may not want competition or maybe he’s just oblivious to your desire for expansion. Who knows. What I do know is that if you keep this up, you’re going to run yourself into the ground. Understand that. Find the joy in what you do by any means necessary because you deserve it. Also, realize that the person you’ll become is the person you are now. Would that person let their manager take away their drive to succeed or would that person work even harder despite these challenges?

Secondly, if this job is not worth the effort, figure out what you would find joy in doing and go get it. The longer you sit in this state of uncertainty and doubt, the worse it’s going to get. Instead of spending your time procrastinating and depressed, look for jobs, push yourself to exercise and get mentally healthy. I know it’s hard to find motivation in a mindset like this but it’s crucial that you use your ability to persevere for the right reasons but only you know what those reasons are.

Good luck with this and always remain hopeful and positive. Be strong and relentless in your pursuit of your dreams.

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