Hey,

I think your problem lies in your perception of the issue. You say you try but trying is neither doing or failing. If you were to commit yourself to what you want instead trying to, you would have much more success. Your solution doesn’t lie within your mind but in your ability to act. Verbally tell yourself to let go of your expectations. Accept what is and what you can control. Physically push yourself to experience things that you can’t form expectations of.

Let life surprise you. You know you’re strong enough to handle life’s challenges, you know you’re capable of finding happiness within yourself, and love is always around you. So what harm can come from opening yourself up to life?

You know expectations diminish spontaneity and joy so stop depriving yourself of it!

Thepathofaronin.blogspot.com is my personal blog and may offer further help. Good luck my friend!