Dear friend

I sympathise with your troubles.
Maybe the facts are undeniable. The way you put them at least to me seems that you are facing a difficult situation.
The solution could be changing your attitude towards the problem you are facing. Let me explain. Why do feel so sad when you are with your parents? Do you think people will judge you? Say that you still rely on your family for example? Do you care what other people think?
What matters the most is to pursue your dreams not having them right know, achieved. Family is the first and most basic stepping stone for us to emerge into adulthood. After a certain age it is normal to feel restrained by the limitations that family life also includes.

Ok!What can you do about it? Emotional handling, patience, avoid self blame, a lot of young people, like me, are in a situation similar to yours. Second job that helps you pay your debts and eventually have a home on your own. Understand why you may hesitate or still feel troubled by this situation even if you wish to take steps to change it.
Wish, Will, Decision are different postures in a difficult situation. Wish belongs to the realm of fantasy. Will means you made peace with reality and are ready to take part on it (for example if you can’t leave your home right now start smiling every day.) Decision means acting, engaging reality and that needs courage.

Here is an article that may help from tinybuddha :

Live a Big Life: Shift from “Why Me?” to “Why?”

Please don’t forget what you already achieved in your life. Many people dream of making money from acting even for a little while and you are doing exactly that! Don’t be harsh on your self. Life indeed is always moving on, but not so fast that you should panic and get depressed because you haven’t done everything you want yet. In other words, don’t rush your self. Don’t strech your spirit too much.

Take care friend
Let me know how things go after a while!
And if you still feel sad you can always reach out on this lovely online community and ask for advice.
George