Hi,

I’m sorry for your struggle. Perhaps you might be avoiding having to deal with the real issues you have with yourself and/or your expectations about your life/marriage. Many people go through similar phases when they are not satisfied with their lives. Please do yourself and your family the respect of going to a counselor for help….BEFORE you make the decision to do something you can’t take back. This “new” situation is probably exciting, but the bottom line is that it is a distraction from dealing with your true issues.

19 years is a long time. I’m assuming there might be something worth looking at before you completely throw it away.

Remember: “The grass might look greener on the other side, but you have to mow that too” 🙂

Good luck!!
-Bronte