Dear Bill,

I can understand how this must feel, I guess it happens to most of us, especially if we feel vulnerable or carry some kind of resentment… It feels like “I’m trying really hard but no one notices, and I am being treated rude in return!”
However, the way you describe it it sounds as if the people on the bus really just did not hear you! Very probably they did not mean to be rude, but just did not get you wanted out and then felt you were being the one who just expects them to step aside and recognise what you want…
It is a misunderstanding, nothing more! Nobody is “good” or “bad” all the time. But in times when other things bother us, it can feel as if everyone is against us and the world is a hostile place…

I would suggest you leave others out of this at first (people are people) and try to figure out
1. Why it is so important to you to be seen as a “good” person – maybe it is ok not to be perfect sometimes, or to forget holding open the door… Have a second look at the options you have for reacting – right now you just see black and white: feel really ashamed or turn around and say “f*** you” and laugh in peoples faces and don’t care at all. I’m pretty sure there is something in between like “*shrug* Sorry, no offense intended”.
2. What makes you so frustrated? Is it really the behaviour of a few people or is it something else? Have you faced a lot of rejection recently or maybe even your whole life? It seems to make you angry, and it is an understandable reaction, but it is something you need to figure out for yourself, because it will influence how you interpret peoples actions…
3. Why you have so high epxectations towards the interaction with other people? Maybe because your expectations towards yourself are very high, you also think other people should be the same and think and act the same – but they don’t! They all just try their best, and except from a few aholes they rarely mean to make others miserable…

I wish you good luck and I hope you can find a more positive perspective on things!