Anita i’m working on it. In therapy i question these thoughts and try to understand how come i started thinking like this (i wasn’t always like this-at some point to my life, i stopped smiling).

What is really exhausting though i’ll share with you. There are no magic solutions and the worst part is that i don’t simply have a depressed mood and i just have to endure the pain knowing that i will live again. I feel guilt about living and don’t find purpose in life. This is what complicates the proccess of psychotherapy. I could take medicine but i feel that i want to talk my way out of this. Just like crying yourself to sleep-talking yourself towards life.

Honestly, sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is that i will love and be loved again.

Anita, thank you very much for taking the time to listen.

You take care as well
George